Tag: cancer
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playing the drums
A few months ago I contacted the Roy Castle Lung Cancer Foundation. I knew lung cancer awareness month was coming up in November and I wanted to see what I could get involved in. I do want to get involved with raising awareness, I’m just not sure how to or in what capacity. Either way,…
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twinkling in every lung
My ability to actually blog cannot keep up with my brain. Last week I spent a good hour or longer writing something I was really proud of. But my app crashed and it didn’t save. I was so irritated that I haven’t been able to start it again. I have these things on my mind:…
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How do you feel?
I was asked this tonight after a toast to my first post-cancer treatment scans showing no evidence of disease last month. It’s not the first time I’ve been asked, and probably won’t be the last. It’s something I never know how to answer. I always pause and go “Uhm…uhhh..” wondering what do I say? Do…
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scan number one
On September 5th at 8am, my husband and I were in a lift. We were on our way up to my oncologist’s office to get the results of the very first scans I’ve had since completing all of my lung cancer treatment. It’s been just under three months since I’ve had my last radiotherapy session…
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excited
I often use blogging as an aide to work out shitty stuff. Which life gives us aplenty. I worry sometimes that my blog is bleak and depressing because I use it for that. But I guess I just have to do me. In my day to day life I am pretty cheery and happy. I…
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pulling weeds
I don’t think it’s a coincidence that last night was a full moon and that it was the last eclipse of the summer. I had quite a day yesterday. Although I didn’t do as well as I’d hoped, I made it through the day anyway and that’s what matters. Lunar eclipses always occur at the…
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serving waffle realness
So I’m finished with cancer treatment. It was a weird week or two leading up to it. I got pretty ill from the medication I was on for the side effects from the radiotherapy and I’ve been really emotional. In the weeks leading up to finishing, I cried almost every day while getting that treatment.…
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almost there
So here I am, almost done with my cancer treatment. Only two and a half weeks left. Mentally, I think I’m doing better than I have been in recent months. I haven’t been depressed, or have I? I’m not really sure. I haven’t really been myself in my head. I have mostly just felt very…
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to regret or not to regret
I have never believed people who say they have no regrets. No one is perfect and surely everyone has at least done things they look back on and think, “yanno maybe that wasn’t such a great idea” or “gosh maybe I should have done that instead” or “I wish I hadn’t hurt that person”. I…
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difficult, but it can be done
I start chemo one week from today and it’s really all I think about right now. I am nervous. Who wouldn’t be? I don’t know what it’s going to do to me, how it’s going to change me. The fact that I actually am a cancer patient…holy shitballs…it’s taken me some time to digest and…